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Parool's avatar

Sanobar, I finally found the courage to read and listen to this essay. As I heard your voice reading my words and then yours, I was reminded of something a professor had taught us in college about texts speaking to each other. You have shown me another dimension of guilt and what it is like to read a tarot guidance and find a way to apply it in one's life, while it flows. I loved every word of it and found myself in so many of your words. It is a blessing. This essay. And you. Thank you. ❤️

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Sanobar Sabah's avatar

Sigh! Oh Parool. I don't know what to say. I'm so glad we hold eachother's hands through our words. Tight hugs, sis! Thank YOU for the gift. I've finally decided to free myself.

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Roshni's avatar

Janeman! Thank you for recording this....I'm so happy to have heard it. This piece was alive and moving and throbbing!

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Sanobar Sabah's avatar

I read this loving note repeatedly :) Roshni, I'm glad you encouraged me to read my essays. I owned this shit and how! And a lot of that has to do with me reading it aloud. Thank you, yaara!

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Doel's avatar

Warm hugs, Sanobar! Anything but average, so so heartfelt this is ❤️ and your muffins look so yummy, can taste their yumminess through your words.

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Sanobar Sabah's avatar

Easiest muffins ever, Doel! And thank you for the hugs and for the warmth in your feedback 🧡

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Farah's avatar

One of your best essays Sanobar. Loved reading it

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Sanobar Sabah's avatar

I love feedback that shows me what I miss to see! Thank you, Farah ♥️

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Safa's avatar

Sanobar, you create magic with your words as always <3 This was so beautiful to experience. I imagine the lightness from "the allowance of being" like muffins expanding in the oven. Love this so much. Thank you <3

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Sanobar Sabah's avatar

Safa! Like muffins expanding in the oven...khoobsurat yaar! Wish I had written those lines lol Thank you for doing it for me :) I make those muffins quite often and now I'll be reminded of your words and the lightness and expansion that would come with it :))

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Fouzia rashid's avatar

snober u hv touched the strings of my heart ..... i want to unload myself too ..... vl try for sure

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Sanobar Sabah's avatar

Bas that's all we need to do, right? Keep trying :))

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Natasha's avatar

You always write for me don’t you.❤️‍🩹🫂♥️

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Sanobar Sabah's avatar

Lol I feel so good knowing I was never alone. Love and hugs, Natasha!

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Sumira Khan's avatar

"The draw of my fantasies has been so strong that I’ve practically created an alternate, exciting world in my head. Living in my head is attractive and easy. I know because I’ve lived there for decades now - since my childhood." The truths you bring up from inside you are gifts for your readers, Sanobar. This essay is stunning in its clarity and relatability. Hugs meri jaan.

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Sanobar Sabah's avatar

Hugs received with all my heart, Sumira. And thank you for mentioning the relatability part. That's the greatest return gift we give to eachother I guess.

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Zahra. G's avatar

Lovely writing Sanobar.❤️

Not once did your writing feel average. Loved every bit of it!

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Sanobar Sabah's avatar

Writing hi toh dard ki dawa hai :) thank you, Zahra!

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Sanket's avatar

I loved every word of this!! This essay is anything but average.

I want to read this again and again, Sanobar. And I will.

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Sanobar Sabah's avatar

Thank you so much, Sanket :)

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Sanskriti Bhatia's avatar

What a stunning essay, Sanobar! More power to your pen💛

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Sanobar Sabah's avatar

Thank you!

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